I received a tiny metal turtle inside of a tiny shopping cart today. It had a message engraved on it. It came in tissue and in a beautiful pink sparkly bag urging me to “take one day at a time”… … … … … .. … like maybe i could go somewhere slowly.
Today, i had even asked God if He was trying to force me give up on this ministry for lack of financing. I never asked that before. And i was angry and sick of asking people for money. I asked Him why He couldn’t just supply our needs like i want it to be done IN PERFECT TIME …hey …. like He promised. He answered me, “I use YOU.” …. That was not at all what i wanted to hear.
A little later today I found this quote and put it on as my signature on my Africa email. “I have found that there are three stages in every great work of God: first, it is impossible, then it is difficult, then it is done.” – Hudson Taylor
I liked it at first, but i have never yet seen anything finished… it just grows larger and larger yet never finished. I long for “done”. I do not think the quote is even true.
For sure it is like this:
“I have found that there are two repeated stages in every great work of God: first, it is impossible, then it is difficult, then it is impossible again in its’ expansion, then it is difficult etc. forever and ever amen.
One time i told God that this ministry was completely impossible: and He replied, “But i am the God of the impossible”. ehhh. stuck again. no wiggle room here. Only stepping ahead into the impossible with my tiny faith and my risk-taking ability charged. Would i ever be a woman of great faith? I think not. Yet this came to me …
And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 2 Cor.12:9
So like the turtle i must be content with one day at a time…. never deviating from the path ahead and never expecting finished. Now that i have finally accepted my path … how to do that Joyfully? OH NO !!